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it's when it rains,
that i miss her most,
i down water after water
the blues bloom into rivers
that drowns me to the bottom
of her smile, and the sorrow
steals the life as if it were
still mine, as if it were still mine
some days, i crawl out
of the house, pleading sanity
on a street that circles
in my head to a scrawl
of a face asking who i am,
but the world doesn't answer
it doesn't know my name,
i am frightened feelings,
since i knew i came out
of mortal womb, the coil
untangled from around my neck
but i still feel the cold
the way i didn't know ice
in your eyes, and the blue
that erased me farther down
the stretch paler than dark,
my feet fails to draw the way,
my hands, the uprooted trees,
and my heart, the glimmer
of steel sinking low with sun
dear God, about terror,
that old affliction, love,
that runs naked in the mist,
that tears the flower open,
waits for her open face,
to travel back to afternoon rain
the full head of October
lays on her arm in silence,
just before the rain creates
a picture of the old place,
crows rattle in the trees,
the moon lifts the world,
for us to see, for us to see
there is a street in the city,
where you take your lover
by the hand when you feel alone,
where a girl ruins her dress
by the pond, and a boy feels warm,
wearing nothing but her arms
there is a lover, that falls short of rain
before the grass darkens, there is a sky
that stands still for you to see
the world goes on, so the sky
goes on to moon and stars,
not for you, not for me, or anyone,
do the fences mend, the children sing,
that we hold on to them as if they're gone,
and there is nothing to gain,
not wounds, not catharsis, not wisdom,
the day has passed, it gathers dust,
like everything, and everyone turns
to ash without heat, that nothing,
even love, remains
is it too much to say, the sky, the moon -
that i hold my breath because of you,
i feel its cold color on my skin,
the rain is on its way upon the dry land,
afraid to lose my way in a world of mist
i map the stars, mark the holes they make
with my eyes, where they almost all disappear
with all the world's color
so tell me this,
is it too much if i stay,
in one room and another,
before the window, by the corner,
if i keep all the flowers,
but the leaves and water,
all the quiet lines and sad songs
and your words and promises and whispers,
but you with your last memory and your only breath



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i live in Naga City, a small city in the Bicol Region in the Philippines. i love books, food, movies, music, and any kind of art.

A Great Life

i can't say
i've lived long enough
to have something to say
before i die the next moment,

if God asks me what i did to make a difference,
i wouldn't have the answer

i don't think,
i've loved anybody enough
without thinking enough,
and saying enough is enough is enough

i don't think,
i have truly loved,
because i tell myself,
i can't give what i don't have,
when i don't have enough for myself,

i haven't been exactly honest
with myself, can't say i've lied a lot,
but i always took what i thought was best for me,
i wasn't a prayerful person, i believed in working hard
and not giving up

can't say what's best for everybody,
can't say if what i'm saying are the right words,
can't say if there's such a thing as wrong or right,
when all i'm doing is trying to make sense of my life
and thinking where it's going

i apologize for my mistakes,
sorry for what i was, and i was bad,
i hurt a lot of people,
maybe i tried to love,
i guess this is who i am now,

can't say i didn't try,
here's to a great life!



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TheEvilOvelords Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist

Thanks for joining our group! :D
May we be graced by your presence for a long time :meow:

Sakurai Amy
Founder of The Writer Gang

highonwords Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2016
thank you so much :-)
TheEvilOvelords Featured By Owner Sep 20, 2016  Hobbyist General Artist
You're very welcome :)
BlackBowfin Featured By Owner Sep 16, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Hey there, Stephanie.  Thank you for faving.  :)
highonwords Featured By Owner Sep 17, 2016
you are welcome, my friend :-)
BleedingProphecies Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you for the favorite! :) 
highonwords Featured By Owner Aug 12, 2016
you are much welcome :-)
BlackBowfin Featured By Owner Jul 24, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Hey there and thank you for the support!  :)
highonwords Featured By Owner Jul 28, 2016
you're welcome, my friend :-)
takemetoverona Featured By Owner Jul 13, 2016  Student Writer
Thank you very much for the watch! :D
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